just a little

For a teenage girl more than two weeks into my summer holidays you would think I would be doing more with my days than waking up in the afternoon, lounging in my pyjamas and losing myself in the world of fiction, either by picking up one of many books lying around (on the floor, the sofa, the bed, the bookshelf... on any flat surface) or by successively watching multiple episodes of Law and Order SVU. You would think. Mind you, there have been odd days where I woke up just before you can technically call it the afternoon, dragged myself to town and met a friend. I've only mentioned this to convince you that I have in fact left the house since breaking up from school but it's beside the point really, what I'm trying to get at is that I'm not particularly doing anything substantial with my summer days.

Now there are many things I could (should is probably a more accurate word) be doing, with University applications around the corner (gulp) I could (again, should) be writing by Personal Statement, I could (should) be trying to get a part-time job etc. but for some reason I seem to be in a state of denial. I started this post by saying that I am lounging but I think it's less lounging and more floundering. A couple of days ago I tweeted this: 

It's true. Strange hair image aside, I'm stuck in a bit of a rut, both overwhelmed by how much I need to do in the next couple of weeks and by the realisation that after these weeks have decided to come to a close I will be officially making choices that will truly affect the rest of my life. 

Damn. 

With that being said, I have decided that I want to get through this rut of mine. I've often made the mistake of going to sleep with the intention that I will do everything I haven't done in the past however many days the very next day. Today I am hoping that tomorrow I will make a dent, however tiny that dent may seem, in the things I should be doing (probably starting with the pile of summer work for school or perhaps that Personal Statement?). I have decided that I am going to do just a little tomorrow and then hopefully, after a week or so of doing just a little every day, I will see that I've actually done quite a lot. That's the plan, anyway. 

I guess I'll see you soon then, here's to doing just a little. 

All my love, Sadia x